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Well, much to my surprise my niece called me this morning. I haven't spoken with her since I left Georgia on my way out west, which was on August 15. She has been doing really well for herself. She started a new job sometime in the spring I believe and after 3 weeks was offered a possition as head cashier, which gave her more money and benefits which is really what she needed. She bought herself a car about a month ago and is just as happy as a clam with it. She has always said that she would like to be on the police force and even so far as to be on the swat team. I just can't imagine being the bad guy and confronting her. I told her that I see her as a little bittie thing but that I knew that she could kick my butt if need be. She maybe little on the outside but the insides are packed with strength and muscle. Well, she told me that about a month ago she applied for a job at the Gwinnett Police Department and they called her and want her to come in on the 19th of September for testing I believe is what she told me. I'm really happy for her as this is something that she has wanted to do for so very long. My smile is even larger now.

A new beginning is starting now :)

Well, as of 20 minutes ago I made a start to the new beginning. I need to take a math course before I can start the Phlebotomy program that I want to take so I have signed up to take it starting on the 24 of Sept. and lasting 11 weeks. Then the Phleb program starts in January. I feel good about this. I would certainly feel better with a job at the sametime but that will come I'm certain of that. The best thing about this whole thing with the college is that they still have me at an Oregon resident which is a big savings to my pocket. Don't ask me how they did that other then the fact that I registered last December for this and I gave them my mothers address. So maybe things are going to go my way, I would hope that they would. It is nice that I only have to take the math course as of right now. I wouldn't want to figure out double that price at the moment, but I'm doing alright. :) I never would have thought that in a million years I would be going back to school at the age of 46. I don't have a problem with that and age but I didn't want to go years ago, and now here I am making that choice myself. I do believe that is the reason that I'm doing this, because I want to. Plan and simple. I'm good for the moment and that is a good sign. Things for me at the moment are looking good. All smiles.

Well, I spent the morning at a coffee shop that I could access the free internet via wireless. Checking on mail, looking at the school schedule, sending out change of address notes to the people in Georgia and other places that might wonder where the nanny with out children has gone, and thank you notes for the wonderful things that were given to me when I left. I think that I left around 12:00 which then headed to the recycle and HomeDepot.

Had a meeting with an advisor at the Community College this afternoon which I really don't think that it was worth it, other then the fact that I did learn that I need to take a math class before I can be apart of the Phlebotomy program. It will be a quick intense program as it will start in January and go through May, Monday - Friday 8-5. I will have a certificate after I complete the courses which will enable me to get a job. But upon going online to view the class and times that it is offered, I can't seem to find it anywhere. How can that be? The one class that I need to take that is 4 credits and should be there for Fall term isn't around. I will have to go back to the school tomorrow and see what is going on.

Applied for a job at the hospital this afternoon as well. It would be nice to get something full time there as they will pay for 75% of the tuition if I'm a fulltime employee I do believe, but I could be wrong which wouldn't be a first. We shall see what happens with this. I can only hope right?

I spoke with my children this evening. Timmy left me a few messages that sounded so pitiful to me. Telling me that he didn't want me to leave and that he was crying in his room this evening and please call him. Well when I did he was in bed so I told him that since he needed to go to bed I would chat with him tomorrow after school since he doesn't have any homework tomorrow. You know everyday I think that it is getting easier to be away from them and then I get a phone call like that from the little man, and it just breaks my heart to hear it. I know that it will be better for him in the morning and he won't sound like that in the afternoon, but the initial sound is hard.

But I am happy :)

What is a nanny to do when she doesn't have any children to nanny?
The big question that has been mowing through the tall grass of my mind.
For the past 20 years I have been a nanny and the past 10+ were with one family. Started with twin 3 month old girls, then added a little boy and then another set of twin girls. My days were more then full of adventure, and things to do. On top of the 5 that I had there was a dog which wasn't mine but I claimed it as I did the children, and sometimes there were other children that floated into my day. I totally loved what I did and wouldn't have changed it for a single moment in time, but with all of them growing up and all in school 5 days a week my need I felt wasn't going to be what it use to be.
Getting up at 5:30 a.m. doesn't have the same meaning any more. Making lunch for myself isn't something I do. Why make lunch when I have to eat alone. Not that I don't but I'm not making it for 2-5 children. I'm not getting up to make 3 different breakfasts for 3 children before they get out of the house for a long school day. I'm not packing lunches, doing grocery shopping, dry cleaning runs, cleaning out the pool, laundry 5 days a week, making sure that child A gets to where she needs to be and that child B can stay home for 20 minutes while I get said child A there. Making sure that child C isn't agrivation children D and E, and then pulling child F( the dog) in because she is outside barking at the wind or anything else that is flowing past her.

I moved out west to be with my mother, my best friend and now I wonder what I'm going to do. I know that I've only been here for one week but I feel like something is missing in my day to day life. I know that I would like to go back to school and learn Phabotomy but after looking through all the papers it is a Monday through Friday 8:00 - 5:00 situation, so where does that leave me with work which I need to do so that I can go to school and then the most important thing is that I have no insurance. YICKS! Let us hope that I don't get sick, knocking on wood as we speak.

I know that this too shall pass but until it does, the wondering continues.