What is a nanny to do when she doesn't have any children to nanny?
The big question that has been mowing through the tall grass of my mind.
For the past 20 years I have been a nanny and the past 10+ were with one family. Started with twin 3 month old girls, then added a little boy and then another set of twin girls. My days were more then full of adventure, and things to do. On top of the 5 that I had there was a dog which wasn't mine but I claimed it as I did the children, and sometimes there were other children that floated into my day. I totally loved what I did and wouldn't have changed it for a single moment in time, but with all of them growing up and all in school 5 days a week my need I felt wasn't going to be what it use to be.
Getting up at 5:30 a.m. doesn't have the same meaning any more. Making lunch for myself isn't something I do. Why make lunch when I have to eat alone. Not that I don't but I'm not making it for 2-5 children. I'm not getting up to make 3 different breakfasts for 3 children before they get out of the house for a long school day. I'm not packing lunches, doing grocery shopping, dry cleaning runs, cleaning out the pool, laundry 5 days a week, making sure that child A gets to where she needs to be and that child B can stay home for 20 minutes while I get said child A there. Making sure that child C isn't agrivation children D and E, and then pulling child F( the dog) in because she is outside barking at the wind or anything else that is flowing past her.
I moved out west to be with my mother, my best friend and now I wonder what I'm going to do. I know that I've only been here for one week but I feel like something is missing in my day to day life. I know that I would like to go back to school and learn Phabotomy but after looking through all the papers it is a Monday through Friday 8:00 - 5:00 situation, so where does that leave me with work which I need to do so that I can go to school and then the most important thing is that I have no insurance. YICKS! Let us hope that I don't get sick, knocking on wood as we speak.
I know that this too shall pass but until it does, the wondering continues.
2 comments:
Oh, my goodness..I didn't know that you left a comment. You know who I am and..I am sorry that I didn't see this. I always try to respond to comments, but I don't often go back very far as I am new to this and lots of time that doesn't happen.
I encourage you to keep on keeping on. It is so hard to make a huge life change. It is scary. It will be o.k. I know you miss what you had..you were and are so good at what you did.
Always keep that in mind and know that you will find the path and the place. Keep on writing..I am going to check in and I hope you do it. It is a rewarding and good thing to do for yourself, although frightening at times.
I remain...me. I'll be back and expecting some other posts/////1
p.s. I've bookmarked this page, so I'll be expecting and hoping for more entries. and appsss you could teach me a number of things on how to do a number of things in blogging!
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